And there was a 15 hour break in the middle. My wife insists that she has taken me down that road before; briefly freed and re-locked promptly. Myself, I don't recall it. And as the roller coaster was such a wild ride, I think I'd remember it.
I know for some of you the idea of 4 days on, 1 off, 5 on again sounds like a breeze, but it wasn't for me. Not at all. It was a total mindfuck. And I think I would've recalled it if we'd done it before.
Then again, the brain sometimes hides traumatic things from us so we can function normally too ;)
It was intense. Intense enough that I kept saying to myself "Did I really ask for this? To which both my Mistress and my wife would respond basically the same - Yes, I most certainly did.
*dreamy sigh*
I even considered trying to milk my own prostate, or to hold a vibe against the cage to try and find any relief. But the fear that it would intensify the denial was what kept me from doing it. Mistress encouraged me to keep her posted of how I was feeling. Turns out that she is finding the reports of mounting tension and frustration to be very entertaining. A "grin from ear to ear" she said.
Mercifully, my wife allowed me out. I had behaved. I hadn't whined like I used to. I actually didn't even ask to be let out. I just made it clear how difficult it was for me, and how much I loved her. I'd say she was "too kind" but I think that she was exactly kind enough.
I've mulled over why it was so intense. Perhaps it's just the ongoing experience of it all. It might be that I had visited with Mistress twice in that span - once to do some errands and enjoy some limited discipline for failing to adhere to the exercise portions of my contract and once socially for dinner. Perhaps it was the fact that the intensity seems to peak for me at 3 or 4 days (though that peak doesn't fall off for quite a while.) Perhaps it was that I found the mini-session and discipline exciting, but I found sitting at dinner and talking about the details of all that's been going on in our relationship to be even more exciting. Well, whatever it was, it was intense.
By that last morning of it, I was at my emotional messing point. Drippy, frothy, distracted, enamored, lusty, whiny, needy, happy, desperate... dominated. Lady Regina offered to take me with her strapon, but I really thought that was going to just make matters worse for me. Oh, I can't deny there was a part of me that wanted to go *there* too. And I even briefly consider asking my wife if might be ok.Who knows what the future holds or where the journey will take us. For now, it sure keeps my day to day life from being boring.
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Grr..rrrr _ Wow! A mind fuck alround...
Indeed my good man, indeed.
Aarkey that's totally hot! I know what you mean about wanting to go there with the strapon. I think I would have had a very "hard time" passing on that even if it added to my torment in the long run! :-p
I orgasm twice a week now; once every three days or so. Her Majesty says that is a good frequency for me and I agree with her.I have gone for 5 days occasionally which was a challenge but the release at the end was exquisite!
Congratulations on your journey my friend! I very much looking forward to hearing about further developments! :-)
HMP: Glad you enjoyed the story. I don't know how I would respond to the kind of orgasm rationing you have. For me it seems feast or famine. When freed from lockup I can usually have three or four within a few hours (sometimes two within minutes.)
But then it is sometimes 5+ days between them, and not 3.5 per.
Saw a great "Life is Good" shirt the other day: The journey is the destination
:)
Perhaps it was the fact that the intensity seems to peak for me at 3 or 4 days (though it that peak doesn't fall off for quite a while.)
I've found that it peaks after a certain amount of time, then falls off, and then my mind tricks me into making it hotter simply because I'm in a space where I'm ambivalent about it, and so it becomes more of a control issue.
Glad to see you made it through with all your parts working.
30 days for the next round?
Tom, my mind definitely isn't all that helpful sometimes! :)
And as to your 30 suggestion...
1) Lets not give the ladies any ideas!
2) How about 15 first?
This was probably the most involved I've been so far with the whole cycle of tension buildup/release for you in your chastity training. (which is funny to say since I've milked you before while you were locked..)
But it was totally fascinating and pretty hot towards the end when you were getting desperate.
Lady Regina, thanks for the comment and so glad you enjoyed hearing about the build up.
And it hadn't occurred to me that the previous chastity cycles didn't automatically really include you in the emotional experience of the buildup. I don't think it could've inspired you to be more enthusiastic about the milking. I don't think *anything* could've done that. Innnnnntense! ;)
I've actually found that build up thing happens for me too. Between a week and two weeks is most intense. Then I get weirdly possessive. I like getting hot and bothered by the glimpse of an ankle or just the click of a heel.
It's drug like so I always need to be careful.
And I totally relate to feast or famine. I'm either or I'm or...
"Then I get weirdly possessive." I can kind of understand that. There's a little pride inside of the "I can take more peril" style.
I wish I could trade places with you!
SheenV - I make sure to put you at the front of the line for the tag team pervert contest ;)
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