21 Hours

That's the amount of time I've been out of my chastity belt in the last two weeks. And strangely, I'm actually ok with it. Oh, don't get me wrong, I'm more than ready to get a release... and as long as I behave myself today with any modicum of civility I'm pretty sure I'll get one tonight. But then tomorrow, it's back into the belt again. It's becoming so familiar, it's really weird that way. I had it off for two full weeks, since my keyholder wife mercifully took pity on me. She had just locked me up the day before, but let me out after locking me up when we realized I really was sick with a doozy of a chest cold. And then, putting on that cold hard steel again after the time off it felt totally awkward and intrusive - but today, it feels like it belongs there.

Anyone know what I mean?

On a more technical chastity note - I recently made two minor adjustments to the way I wear the cage too. First, I am using a lot less lube. As I've gotten used to it more and more, the lack of motion that no lube brings actually seems to help in the long run. I typically lotion myself before bed and in the morning, but I am using a minimum of lube now. Secondly, I got a small polyurethane ring that's about 1" wide and I put that over the top of the cage. It helps when I'm moving around a lot, or if I'm getting really excited, since otherwise I find that the top of my glands either rub or push through the top bars of the cage and cause irritation. Wearing that for trips where I know I'm going to be walking a lot has helped a good bit too. After a couple of trips, I trimmed down the underside of it so it's only about 1/3" wide - that prevents it from pushing the underside lock against me as well. Always trying to build a better mouse cock trap! ;)

One thing for sure, this contract we have with Lady Regina is definitely a mind trip. It's an awesome one, but man oh man... what a ride. One of the terms is that anytime I go to the dungeon for any purpose I have to be locked. Well, I am going there tomorrow afternoon to help a bit, so even if I get out tonight, I'm back in tomorrow. A little break, even just one night really helps a lot. If only so I can shave all the bits.

*dreamy sigh*

Last night at Command Performance was super intense. Lady Regina really worked me over. My nipples, well I don't think they'll ever be the same! My butt is all shades of black and blue, and my ego is a little too, after one of the scenes; but my pervy heart is singing.

It seems that I really crave feeling disciplined... pushed, directed, controlled. It's such a different mind space than just partaking in a corporal scene. The physical sensations are the same, but the mindset is totally different. And it sure was intense realizing just how beating my ass was when she leaned forward and pressed against me and every little buckle and clasp of her corset and harness were poking and prodding and piercing.

And then to be sent home, beaten and bruised and locked for another night. Only to know that I'm going to return to the dungeon and be locked again no matter what in 36 hours.

One of the Mistresses at CP introduced me to her friend as "the new house slave" and I paused for a moment... I hadn't thought of myself that way. I don't know if I am, I guess I need to figure that out a bit, before I get abducted by a gang of beautiful dominant women ;)

*dreamy sigh*

What a life...

Oh, and that's the best I can do with a new boots pic for you pervs... since my wife's got our camera ;)

One other little side impact of being in chastity this much... I can't go down to the courthouse to renew my vehicle tag. Well, unless I'm up for an awkward conversation after setting off the metal detector. BTW, thats a topic there that I'll be broaching on the blog soon, but that's for another day.

I've been remiss

I'm sorry for the non posting, lots of things to say - not always sure how to say em. One thing for certain, life's been good and fun and interesting and locked up. Quite locked up too. If you take out the week or so when I had a bad cold and was mercifully unlocked, I think since signing the contract, I've spent about 50% of my days locked. And strangely enough, I seem to be locked about 80% of Thursdays - which is "guys night" officially btw ;)

I also want to mention that I lied to you all. Well, not intentionally, but I said I was ordering a couple of copies of a book that I would read and review, and instead I decided to simply give one copy to my key holding wife and another copy to my friend and Mistress, Lady Regina.

I did that for two reasons, actually three. First, there's nothing quite like a brand new book compared to one that's been gently read already. Second, I already read a candid and expert review that was provided by Ms. Dev. Lastly, and this is one of those ongoing things with me... I don't want to over think or control my experiences.

It's such a tricky dichotomy, asking someone to dominate you is juxtaposed from the get-go, but letting go of the results of that and trying to focus on enjoying the control as it is; rather than as I imagined it might be - is a great experience for me. And something that requires real work. Real work at not working it in a sense actually.

So, after having read the review, I realized that if I read the book myself, I might not be 100% sure I wanted to pass it along. And that manipulation might seem very minor, but it's part of my ongoing efforts to not direct things, it just isn't what I want to do.

And not doing directing, well that's tricky. Because frankly... I'm a greedy lil bugger ;)

On the plus side, as a part of my own love of saying "FU" to gender rules (and high heels) I got myself some sexy work boots for X-mas. They finally arrived last night, and I'm debating getting them in brown, because they're damned hot! Frankly I think they would go great as a part of model Elisabetta Canalis's work outfit.

Today's Funny

I wonder who did the marketing research for this one?

Chastity Community + bonus question

A new communal blog has been created called "KeyHeld." Designed as an aggregate for blogs in which male chastity and orgasm denial are the main focus and I'm honored to be included, even though I definitely stray away from chastity from time to time to talk politics, horticulture and sports - mostly ;)

Definitely hop over there and give a look see: keyheld.blogspot.com

In other chastity news, someone told me about a new book "Male Chastity: A Guide for Keyholders," which I've ordered - (Amazon link)

And lastly, a question posted in the comments of "Careful What You Wish For" by Tanya: You want it, you desire it... and on the other hand you are warning your readers and you are stating that it's really not a fun kink. Is it a kind of love-hate? Could you explain this seeming contradiction?

Yes. It's a contradiction. Definitely. I want to be controlled. I seek it. I ask for it. I long for it... I even whine and beg and plead. And then, sometimes... when it happens, well damn... it's too much! Please please please... aeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

And then... it's "Wow, that was really intense. I hated it! And then... sometime later... When can we do it again?"

OT : A worthy cause

Every once in a while I go totally OT here, and this is just one of those cases. A young couple in PA bought their first home only to find out that it was totally unlivable because it had been a meth cookhouse. Sadly, they have no recourse. There's nothing on the law books that say sellers need to disclose this (but if someone's killed in a house, they have to notify you - in case of ghosts I guess.) So this young couple can't even live in their house. The costs for fixing it are estimated between 25-65K. Maybe you can throw a few $ their way, or even just pass word along - hopefully we can get the laws updated to protect innocent people from things like this.

http://ourmethhouse.blogspot.com/