**Please picture something meaningful in this space**
How's that for ya? There's a few ways to go about blogging. There's the journal style - which tends to oscillate between a "News of my day to day" or the deeper "Behind the scenes" view into your emotional psyche. Though I didn't envision my blog to be that way. Frankly I don't think my day to day is all that exciting, and I'm far too reserved about sharing the nooks and crannies of my brain to the world. Perhaps its that I don't want to show my own "dark passenger".
The other kind of blog seems to be a more of an educational variety. But who the hell am I to be all "here's what you need to do" - ya know? Sure, they call me a chastity expert on one board, but I hardly wear the belt for any real duration compared to other guys out there. I'd say that over the last few years I've worn it for 5% of my life - so while I might know a lot about it, I have not actually experienced a lot.
I put a good bit of time into corsetting and I did really lace myself down for quite a while, but I've spent a lot more time in my belt than I have in a corset over the last few years. Heck, I can't even fit into all my corsets anymore. *gasp* I thought it was 15lbs that I put on when I quit smoking, but it's not - I'm still lighter than I was in some of the earliest corset pictures. It's that I shortened the corset strings on the biggest corset's laces (because they used to absurdly lap around my waist 4 times...) - plus the fact that I'm so out of practice that my body is no longer used to the shaping at all!
Anyways... that's where I'm at. Sometimes the whole Bloggin' thing is just hard. I'd wager that 90% of the blogs I've visited have died off, a post or two a month at most - or are stone dead within a few months after starting, if they even make it that long.
On the other side, I don't want to just be an attention whore about it either. I refused to sell out my way of looking at the world to join the Sugasm thing. And I don't want to just post up picture after picture of "please wank here" material - though I think we can all agree that a bit of really sexy hot OMG look at her art is required. I also refuse to be a chronic malcontent or the mad ranter. None of those are things that I wanted it to be about either. Heck, it isn't about traffic, or readers, or even really responses - though I do really appreciate the feedback when I get it - and strangely I get as many e-mails comments as I do on the blog. When I get really down to it, I'm not sure what I wanted it to be about. I do know that a part of the goal was to stop spending so much time on BDSM boards, and it has helped with that. But I do miss my friends. I had expected that a few friends who's blogs I read regularly would stop in here and read my board, even if just occasionally. And with one real exception, they haven't. And I'm not sure why... but it is what it is. Either way, not spending time on the boards is getting easier. I seem to have developed a pair of cyber stalkers on one board, and a very large # of folks have left that site in the last few months for a myriad of reasons. Partly because of a change in the scene in NY, but mostly because the place has gotten so hostile. It's sad, but I've built up enough friends and I spend enough time chit chatting as it is already...
Maybe I'll just stick to playing Rockband II for a while.